my name is mennah and i am not a terroroist

i saw the movie my name is khan last night

it is an art work

it is a great story

it is powerful but i suffered so much

they should have put a warning sign in front of the movie theatre saying

there will be children dying, so sensitive viewers are not allowed

my eyes are still puffy!

i cried so much that my heart was exhausted from all the misery

my whole body was tired!

i came in like a blossoming flower and out like an old lady carrying the weight of the world!

of course the people watching it with me were all fine, taking it lightly

gasps of my loud breath could be heard by everyone and my seat was shaking

a little kid dying in a movie is a recipe for unlimited tears at least to me.

if only i knew i would not have watched it

i realize life can be harsh but i want to take my own tests and i pray God not give me such hard ones

you see when i watch a movie i am not watching it, i am the characters

i feel their pains like they were mine

i am them for a while!

i can not differentiate between me and them!

in a good movie i lose my self

and my husband suffers watching me deteriorate.

but why do they torture us with such a heart breaking story line?

i figured the message was for the west not me.

the movie speaks about how different things became after 9/11 for muslims.

it speaks of tensions and discriminations against muslims.

it speaks of the muslim phobia that spread and the struggles of an indian man in California.

it is a powerful story but if you are a sensitive viewer like me: do not watch it.

i blame my friend who did not warn me, who saw the movie and told me to see it knowing what happens to me.

something i need to make clear is that the actor in the leading role is a genius and i have never seen better acting from a very long time.

i wish more people from the muslim phobics would see the movie.

hollywood is a powerful tool, anything on the screen affects people and influences them.

so many movies made about racial tragedies "my name is khan" is the first one to show how many hardships muslims go through for their beliefs.

the real terrorists ruined it for the whole population of muslims.

so many good muslims were labeled terrorists.

only a small group always ruins it for everyone.

it takes one person to taint a crowd.

but it also takes one person to show

the world a different perspective like the movie makers.

like khan in my name is khan.

a prophet like story, with a weak man becoming a hero, a story worth telling.

however it is heart breaking and so harsh for the sensitive viewer.

the main character khan says: "my name is khan and i am not a terrorist" so many times along the movie. it feels good to say this to the people who judge us for our religion.

Islam is a peaceful religion, some lunatics will not change that.

God is Love

according to islamic teachings the death of one innocent man is equal to the death of humanity.

so those who twist the words and mistake jihad for a terrorist act are wrong.

jihad is the struggle within us to take the right path and tame our egos.

to be good and go against our some what animal needs.

jihad is self mastery and control, jihad is the fight within your soul to be the best that you can.

it does not involve killing, in fact even cutting a tree is prohibited in Islam.

as middle eastern muslims or arabs it scares us to discuss such matters, we do not want to open western wounds but here is my chance to advocate a movie like my name is Khan. a movie that speaks for true Islam.

The good hearts will shine no matter how much darkness surrounds them.

the truth will always show it self even if the media distorts and the news always shed lights on bearded men killing innocents.

One man ruined it for us but i believe another one can come along and make it perfect again

it could be a woman, it could be soon.

God is peace, God is love, God is light.

El Salam Alekom

May peace be upon you