gypsy

the mind longs for whatever is out of reach
when we are here we wait until it is time to fly away
and when we go to those we missed we start thinking of those
on the othe other side and miss them too
we start thinking of how we want to see them again and go back
when we are back we keep thinking of those we left behind
thinking the meeting is the gate to happinness
so many goodbyes
so many hellos
the greeters become normal company after the passionate hugs fade away
hopeful eyes become cold and insensitive in a short time
eyes that were glued on yours start to drift and catch a newer resting place more fresh and more exciting
you look around and again you are alone
no matter who is with you
no place feels like a home
no place feels comfortable
when you have this emptiness inside
love always involves heartbreak
love is not reliable in anyway
but so many people have built thick skins
so many have occupied themselves with so many things to do so they can get distracted
everyone looks for a distraction from the mind
keeping busy makes people happier

some atheletes are addicted to their work out
tiring the body in excersice shuts the mind up


i realized something very important nobody knows it all
we are all trying
keeping busy
the mothers looking after their kids get sucked in cute routines and scheduales
so they do not stop and worry about it all

the buisness men work themselves to sleep
and routines keep people safe


the drinkers keep filling their cups as if drinking
so much will take their minds off whatever they are escaping
and it does only for a short time
only until the pain comes back when they are sober again.

smokers keep themselves busy thinking of the next ciggerete
and occuping themselves with hand movements and the different ways to puff the smoke

the eaters are busy getting lost in taste sensations
and dreaming of their next meal

the shoppers
keep buying their happiness thinking their next purchase will sure bring the joy
or the confidence that they have always longed for

the flirt looks for the next victim to feed their ego. hunting for eyes to lock with theirs
and the teasers love to make people dream of them and then move to the next person
as soon as they find someone else to woe.

everyone is looking for a distraction
everyone is as lost as you sometimes feel
but they all keep it together at the party

and in the end we feel lonely with the person beneath our skin
thinking that this person is the only one with trouble
when everyone else has their pain too but works to hide it and move on

no place feels like home in this world