roller coaster

We always want what is far and when we get it we start wanting something else
The same thing we wished for can start creating our own misery
So maybe we have no idea what we want
Many times we have no clue


And what about those people we travel miles and miles to see and realize we can't stand after awhile
So many misunderstandings
Words twisted in minds creating unwanted wounds


From a distance it's a picture perfect portrait
You get closer and you see all the faults all the hidden wounds
All the spoken and unspoken things we hold

We are so complicated so many layers to us
We change every day our cells change our minds change our hearts twist and turn and what we were dying to have
Loses meaning after a while

Even I love you when said too much loses meaning and taste
Even the kisses when practiced with no passion can be a chore between families and friends
Even lovers are bored time after time

People need time alone
Too much contact is friction
What about the mothers and fathers how do they manage with zero self time
If they can't afford it it's no choice
But I have seen it up close even parents need a break from the apples of their eyes
Those kids they've wanted so much


They say be thankful
But you never thank unless you are about to lose
We never see until we are bumped so hard
Then we learn the lessons of how spoiled we were
And time makes things look sweeter after awhile
We always think we were happier at a previous time
Well most of the time
nostalgic we become because we delete the troubles to make it seem lovely in the past


But these days I have realized the agony is the same
This life is no merry go round
It is a roller coaster that you bought the ticket for and stood in line
You know you will scream and they will turn you upside down
Your world will shake your heart will skip a beat and at times the ride will be slow and boring right before the big rush of the twist and the turn
You know about the
The speed and the adrenaline rush you know about the shock of the sudden change of path

after awhile you think you know the pattern when the big shocking move happens they give you time to slow down
You leave it either laughing and entertained because you have bravery and a strong heart Or like me at the end of the ride with weak knees and a heart that can't stop pounding
With some hairs that turned white on your head
With disbelief and so many questions about why we do that to ourselves
Why do we stand in line for fear and speed and shock?
Well we all chose to buy the ticket before we came to the line
We all stood by choice
Even the little kids do it


For me the ride is no fun when its so dangerous like that
I would prefer a walk In the park or the simple merry go round but the people you love take you to places you did not want to go
For love you trust that even though you will be upside down the seat will keep you from falling
When you think you are dead it will still be ok because so many people died before and others still stand in line and buy the tickets too knowing it will be over
No one stays in the seat when the other people come to ride
Nobody says they will stay forever on the ride
Nobody can
They won't let you
So fear it or enjoy it , it be over soon