trying so hard to keep the lights on

its been crazy
for a mother of small children in Cairo Egypt
it is a lot of work keeping it together in a place like Cairo
you try to keep your cool
you get up every day and make things happen
and you try to keep things together for your children
so they have a somewhat normal childhood
but then when ur small life gets effected
when things as simple as the road to school being safe are not for sure anymore
it becomes hard to be so positive
i realize its part of our evolution
to got through this
i was all for justice freedom and equality
but to tell the truth i lost faith
i dont care for democracy anymore
i dont care for freedom anymore
i dont believe in patriotism anymore
i dont even care to watch the news that depressed me beyond a functioning point
but i just want a little security for my children to be safe on their way to school thats all
thats not too muh to ask is it?