i am not wonder woman

you never know what they are thinking

sometimes they are too proud to say what bothered them

and i do not mean men

i mean people in general

you never know

you can guess you can try to figure it out

but the human mind is so complex

people you love, you see them holding a grudge and you do not know why exactly

they have changed

if only they would say

i have this thing whenever someone bothers me i tell them exactly what bothered me although it may take me an hour of silence and retreat

its the crab in me

taking the shock

but i do not swallow my pains and i do not wait to repay them

i confess in tears or with a shaky voice because i can not help it

or a bruised message on the phone but i communicate

because i care

if i keep carrying grudges and never confronting i will lose everyone

i have a few people and i intend to keep them

so i talk i explain i express

i do not punish

i do not ignore

i do not give a cold shoulder

and i do not surprise

thats with the ones who are labeled friends

the ones i vowed to keep

but those who mistreat me and i do not know them enough

i give up on them in shortest time

i move on

i ignore

they are transparent

i do not care for them

but my dear friends, we have a history, you know me and i know you

how can i let you go?

you know i am incapable of doing you wrong

and if i did i did not mean it

i can not take the cold treatment

my heart is not made for that

i do not like big crowds

my friends are few but we stay close even

if it is only phone calls we have

we hold each other

we back each other

we are a pack even if we do not meet as often

our hearts are together

when something bothers you and it is someone you love, tell them, you owe it to them, they owe it to you to explain themselves.

people are too complex, our mind if publicly spoke, we would have been labeled mad.

I confess i am paranoid, over sensitive, very picky, and also as loyal and loving as it can get so when you opened your heart to me, you should have warned me that you can make your ice cubes form and you can be so cold, because I melted a long time ago and if you stay around me long enough i guarantee you your ice will melt because i am too warm for ice to be around.

people like to judge and love to hate and label and make decisions based on perceptions or fears, i realized i can not please everyone,even if i tried.

because i can not read minds and i am not wonder woman.