where to?

where do we go from here?


in between the four walls, i felt the walls closing down on me.
i knew i needed to leave and that the free colors are what i was meant to do.

university theatre was my favorite place
until i was asked from my parents to leave.
they worried and I obeyed.

they said interior design is also an art and your father owns it so you might as well.
i tried for six months and i almost could not go on.
i felt caged in a world of practicality
and routine although in the end an art is formed.
it is not instant.
it takes so much time to take a decision.
and with paints and on the canvas i just splash the color no body tells me to consider a lighter tone of blue.

no group discusses my decision to draw that line on the canvas this second.

blogging is close to painting you do not need approval.

it is instant.
you do not wait.
there are no rules of editing.
you take it or leave it.

it is from the heart
to the crowd .
no barriers and
no business behind it.
no hidden agendas.
no waiting.
no gaining.
no losing.

you can run free.
you can say whatever and no body labels you.

i encourage everyone who feels like it to blog
it is like acting.
you are born with this feeling that you want to act.
you do not know why or how or what, you just want to act.

it is the same with all the arts:
you want to write.
you want to paint.
you want to dance.
you wake up one day
and you want to do yoga.
that is it!
your body knows it on some level.
you are ready!

i wake up and i know
that this is what i want to do
i do not want to market
i do not want to plan
i do not want to stay in an office
and i can not go through with it

how does the bird know how to fly ?
or that her wings can support her?
she just has to do it!
and she wakes up wanting to fly!

dreams of flying always come to my head.
and in my sleep.
i do fly!
is it so wrong that i want to fly?

it feels so good to know where to go